eating raw more consciously

Sometimes I can't believe this journey that I'm on. I seem to be on a moving train that I can't jump off anymore, and it's really quite a joyous thing. Well I suppose I could if I really wanted to, but I don't see the point to go back to dead-ends.

I've been feeling these changes now I have this resolve within me. Just the act of walking through the garden, picking (and giving thanks,  poor plants!) spinach, dandelion leaves and so on, and adding them to my fruits, blended together. All this is somehow working on me. The act of gathering locally is an interesting thing in itself. I feel that somehow humans are meant to gather locally, ideally, if they need to eat.

I find myself changed within, and don't find myself interested in certain food things which are on offer. I feel like the things I'm slowly discarding from my life, are being replaced by this sense of connection to deeper things. Just recently I've been discarding the small bits of bread I've been having once a day. Also, I'm drinking my one or two cups of coffee with a different sense now, less enjoyment I suppose. Perhaps I'll come back to that.

So while I'm eating mostly raw now, and have a lot more energy from it, I keep open minded as to where this might lead me. I think back to where i was, and see a huge change just from going mostly raw vegan. I can't  advise anyone on breatharianism, as I'm not one, but it does strike me that for long-lasting and conclusive changes, going to natural food first and so on, is logically a good way of doing things, as it allows the body to adapt, whatever the eventual outcome. I've tried days of fasting and so on in the past, but in retrospect, i see it as a worthwhile exercise in seeing how the body reacts and copes etc, and how one feels - and perhaps, I was getting a little ahead of myself too.

Still ongoing, which surprises me somehow

For a long time I've just been doing my thing without giving a huge amount of thought to any process of refinement. It's been ages since I had a cooked meal in the evening, but I did the other evening, which is why I'm adding to this blog. Usually I have fruits, and I was amazed at how I really didn't enjoy the cooked food. I was somehow expecting for normality to go on, and even possibly regress on this path, and go back to my old eating habits - but I find that something has changed in me fundamentally, and I can't or won't do it. I felt dry after that cooked food. Also, it didn't decrease any sense of hunger I might have in the evenings - I feel the same in that sense after fruits or cooked food. Hunger is a strange thing. Hunger is possible with me, even after eating! The only thing that seems to stop hunger is meditation and that kind of thing,

In the mornings I have some oats and rice milk and banana, but that too now is starting to weigh on me somehow (the rice milk and oats in particular). Strange how things have changed, from full blown muesli etc, to just oats and rice milk, and how that is even weird now.

So even though I don't spend much time thinking about it, looks like something is still going on.

I continue working on my fitness, especially light weights at the moment, been less inclined to run recently.

I really can't comment anymore on what's going on with me, but I'll just continue enjoying life as it is.