More and more fruits have been tasting not good. Also, because I do less exercise than I used to, I've been finding that I've been getting too loaded with fruit sugars. Sometimes, after eating some fruit, I've felt tired. Also, I've had that bombed feeling recently after eating fruit, kind of high and woozy at the same time  - so it looks like my pancreas or something, has been struggling with the quantity of sugar involved in eating lots of fruit, even though they're natural sugars...

At the same time, I've been struggling with the taste of everything. Fruit teas have been tasting really bad. I was away for a while and had a coffee, just to get a taste of something I actually liked, but could only drink a third of the cup. I've been in a strange place where just everything tastes bad, whether salad or fruit - anything really.

Yesterday, it was raining and I found myself baking a loaf of bread, for the fun of it - without really much intention of eating it. Also, feeling lonely in my food choices, I wanted to reconnect with the whole comfort=food process - and that's especially true of baking. Of course, I did have some toast in the end, and I have to say, it tasted great to me. Also, the children liked it, which is better than the bought bread they usually have.

It's been ages since I've had bread.

Another problem that has been growing for me with regards to fruits, are the air miles involved. Being transported thousands of miles by air... just so I can have some fruit. Seems insane somehow. I've always had many bananas, but I'm wondering, am I moving away from such vast quantities of fruit? The garden provides nice fruit for about a month, and then it's root vegetables for most of the time.

I seek simplicity really in everything. Really, I need to fast again soon.

Day  4 of fast:

In the morning felt bad, not weak, but a bit nauseaus – drank some tea and diluted fruit juice and did some press ups, then I was ok. Had a very busy day, from swimming to having to go to a concert in the evening.  Weight at end of day, down a little. That night, I was in a strange place within myself, and in the middle of the night I had to walk around the house, gently pacing back and forth. Felt incredibly sad at the bananas I wasn't eating, but I realise that the sadness was there, had nothing to do with bananas really - yet, also felt a kind of deep connection to things. Throughout the day, a couple of times felt like I needed the loo, but I didn't, nothing there.

Day 5 - end of fast: 

Stomach felt a bit sicky on the fluids. Strangely, like yesterday, still have a fair amount of gas.

Weight his morning: 10 stone, so weight has finally dropped a little. There's a bug going round, and my body has reacted to it massively. Extremely sore throat. Decided to have some fruits again, both as smoothies and individually, as I felt so bad. Also, needed to keep my head together.

Day 6: Weight  in the morning: just under 10 stone, despite eating again. Have had the most terrible snot EVER – just a stream of mucus all night. Feel like I'm massively detoxing. 

It's been a week now, eating fruits, and I've had terrible mucus, like I've never had before. Feel this part of detox. It's been cold and very wet lately, damp, and for the first time in over a month, had some cooked food. A baked potato, and some stew.  Will see how I feel about that in a day or two. First impressions, is that it was quite a handy thing to have, against the cold and damp.