tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-46633719845298000832024-02-08T03:45:33.858-08:00bodyspiritual -This blog is about the changes that are going on in my life, and how changes in understanding are impacting on my life, especially with regards to the intake of food.Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.comBlogger88125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-63022206341124955332015-06-18T23:09:00.001-07:002015-06-18T23:09:47.236-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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More and more fruits have been tasting not good. Also, because I do less exercise than I used to, I've been finding that I've been getting too loaded with fruit sugars. Sometimes, after eating some fruit, I've felt tired. Also, I've had that bombed feeling recently after eating fruit, kind of high and woozy at the same time - so it looks like my pancreas or something, has been struggling with the quantity of sugar involved in eating lots of fruit, even though they're natural sugars... <br />
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At the same time, I've been struggling with the taste of everything. Fruit teas have been tasting really bad. I was away for a while and had a coffee, just to get a taste of something I actually liked, but could only drink a third of the cup. I've been in a strange place where just everything tastes bad, whether salad or fruit - anything really.<br />
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Yesterday, it was raining and I found myself baking a loaf of bread, for the fun of it - without really much intention of eating it. Also, feeling lonely in my food choices, I wanted to reconnect with the whole comfort=food process - and that's especially true of baking. Of course, I did have some toast in the end, and I have to say, it tasted great to me. Also, the children liked it, which is better than the bought bread they usually have.<br />
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It's been ages since I've had bread.<br />
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Another problem that has been growing for me with regards to fruits, are the air miles involved. Being transported thousands of miles by air... just so I can have some fruit. Seems insane somehow. I've always had many bananas, but I'm wondering, am I moving away from such vast quantities of fruit? The garden provides nice fruit for about a month, and then it's root vegetables for most of the time.<br />
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I seek simplicity really in everything. Really, I need to fast again soon.<br />
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Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-37903346773965972922015-06-01T12:53:00.003-07:002015-06-01T12:57:09.370-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Day 4 of fast:<br />
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his morning: 10 stone, so weight has finally dropped a little. There's a bug going round, and my body has reacted to it massively. Extremely sore throat. Decided to have some fruits again, both as smoothies and individually, as I felt so bad. Also, needed to keep my head together.</span></span></div>
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Day 6: <span style="line-height: 100%;">Weight in the morning: just under 10 stone, despite eating again. Have had the most terrible snot
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<span style="line-height: 100%;">It's been a week now, eating fruits, and I've had terrible mucus, like I've never had before. Feel this part of detox. It's been cold and very wet lately, damp, and for the first time in over a month, had some cooked food. A baked potato, and some stew. Will see how I feel about that in a day or two. First impressions, is that it was quite a handy thing to have, against the cold and damp.</span></div>
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Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-20234634342232722832015-05-22T14:53:00.001-07:002015-05-22T15:06:31.874-07:001 month raw and 3 days fasting + salt water flushes<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Did a month on just fruits, nuts and salad. The only non-raw thing I had was a bit of olive oil dressing on the salad, but didn't have a salad every day.<br />
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After that month, started to fast in a spontaneous way on some days off work I had. Was so used to doing myself a fruit smoothie in the mornings, that I forgot about my fast, and had a smoothie automatically... But from 9am onward, my fast had started....<br />
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My findings for those days:<br />
Day 1: Later that morning, did a salt water flush, and it did hurry my bowels somewhat. Had some diluted orange juice during the day. Also, cups of herbal teas.<br />
Evening weight: not much difference, just above 10 stone.<br />
Day 2: Did another salt water flush, but it would not move my bowels at all. Diluted orange juice during the day, also cups of herbal tea.. Quite gassy, which I was surprised about, because I felt I didn't have much left in there. But since it takes between 20 and 30 hours for food to travel from the mouth to the way out, that's not surprising. No stools all day, which is unusual. The reverse of what a salt water flush is meant to do.<br />
Evening weight: I was expecting my weight to have fallen today, but it had not, just about 10 stone.<br />
Day 3: Did another salt water flush, and about 20 mins later it produced a bowel movement. A surprisingly dense and heavy stool for someone who eats mostly fruit, it was difficult. Once that was out of the way, and the blockage has been removed.... I needed to be near a loo for about 2-3 hours!! The salt flush really, really worked. I must have gone 5 to 6 times, and couldn't believe how much was being washed out. It felt so good to be free of all that. Immediately my breathing became deeper, like a part of my abdomen was more accessible. Also, a feeling of warmth spread out from that area, helping circulation to my extremities. When the salt flush really began to work, I felt like something was urging me to SHIFT quickly somehow, like a presence was trying to get me to change gears. A bit later, drank hot water with lemon juice. Unfortunately, I couldn't accommodate the last bowel movement, as I had to pick the children up from school!! I had a worrisome moment in the car... but I was ok! This process is like a game, with humour, and tailored to my way of life.<br />
Weight: Strangely, again, my weight has not decreased, in fact has increased a little. How is this possible? I would say I look a bit thinner around the neck, but my overall weight has not changed, in fact, increased a tiny fraction. despite losing all that internal matter.<br />
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I haven't felt weak over these 3 days. Sleep has been a little light though, but have been using that time to read etc. Doing push ups and squats to keep the body motor ticking over... Push ups up to 50, just to keep tabs on my fitness level.<br />
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If I feel like I do now, tomorrow, I won't eat, just have herbal teas and diluted orange juice.</div>
Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-8055646926346743772015-04-19T11:29:00.003-07:002015-04-19T11:29:38.948-07:00It's all OK<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Something has deepened. I wasn't going to write about it, as I feel that keeping quiet about these things is a better approach... But then, in these times, I feel that there's enough Light around, for things like this to be made open....<div>
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A couple of realisations:</div>
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1) The deep love and impersonality of Light - I feel this keenly, unlike other times. This has helped me forward a little. By impersonality, I mean without emotion, without fluctuation.</div>
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2) Foods are bad! In my path, of going back and forth, but mostly two steps forward and one back, it's taken me up until now to feel with clear conviction that inputting substances into the body, isn't such a good idea. How long is it taking me to get this fully? Too long!</div>
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Am just on fruits again. The other day, just some juices. Really feel a change going on. Like I really don't want to walk back on the old path.</div>
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Also, realising that refining food input, isn't about attaining amazing long life, but about cleaning up the body/antenna that receives the higher signals. To enhance communion with those.</div>
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I came upon a sentence that really jumped out at me, from a C.S.Lewis book, Voyage to Venus:</div>
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"...And he bowed his head and groaned and repined against his fate - to be still a man and yet to be forced up into the metaphysical world, to enact what philosophy only thinks.'</div>
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Kind of says it all, and perhaps anyone who's on this path feels the same. Why always being pushed on to refine food, to somehow go beyond it? It's an agreement at soul level I think.</div>
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Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-85211013018861717912015-03-14T14:40:00.001-07:002015-03-14T15:57:42.432-07:00Life is like climbing a big mountain toward the Light<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Hello, I haven't updated my blog for a long while.<br />
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For the sake of focusing my mind, I thought I would write some more - writing has always been found to be the best method in that regard :-))<br />
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It was December last year last time I wrote, a long time. This is pretty much how things have gone for me food wise since then.<br />
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I got through Christmas as a fruit/raw food person, but went back in a strange fashion soon after Christmas. I was with the family, in the financial district of London, and ended up eating a pizza (!!!?) there. This was strange and crazy for me. I felt cold (it was really cold), I felt strange by all the strange buildings, and the strange reality of London financial district.... The kids and my wife wanted a nice meal, and we ended up in a pizza place, which wasn't even grounded on the earth. It was a restaurant above the road, with cars underneath. So it was weird. I started to ingest pizza, above a road, surrounded by glass buildings and ancient Roman remains. It's hard to explain how disconnect from the earth these places are. I think part of my problem, is that with all the Christmas socializing, I just hadn't been eating my usual amounts of fruit, wasn't really prepared enough.<br />
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After that pizza, which re-acclimatized my body to this kind of 'food' (it's definitely not food), and feeling at a low ebb, I ate more cooked food. I still get a soar throat nearly straight away after eating (too much) cooked food, which is weird.<br />
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I've been having coffee and toast again, but it's not doing me much good. Also, eating other cooked stuff, but try and keep that down as much as possible. Weirdly, I find a whole cooked meal, with cooked vegetables etc, much worse than eating sometimes more 'unhealthy', like a piece of toast with vegetable grease.<br />
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I can't explain this to myself. Why is it, that cooked vegetables, or whole cooked meals, feels like eating a load of sludge and dirt, but chewing on a crunchy piece of toast doesn't? Perhaps cooked dishes are really complex in their make-up, with different levels of things all mixed together.<br />
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I don't have a plan to go all raw food again. Really I'm more interested in doing a fast again soon.<br />
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My weight has changed very little over all this time, a little above 10 stone.</div>
Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-63486901118211345282014-12-17T16:50:00.003-08:002014-12-17T16:54:29.351-08:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
In my last post I said I was going to have a chocolate croissant at the weekend and a coffee- well that did happen, but only two weeks later. It was ok. Not sure I really enjoyed it that much. The coffee registered positively in my brain, but then there was the come down later.... so...<br />
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It's just been fruits and nuts for me all this time, since last time. My weight still hovers just a little under ten stone. I'm preparing for a fruit Christmas. (Salad has been out, don't feel like it, for a long time now.) That's going to be interesting, with relatives etc. Funny, but I really don't care about it. Perhaps because I feel certain about my course of action. Also, I've said to myself and my wife, that I can revert to cooked anytime, but I think we both know, that's not going to happen any time soon...<br />
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The other thing is the weather. It's cold. It's damp. But I'm still on fruits. Something's happened to me, and what has happened to me, is not something I can easily explain. I should be cramming the bread in, drinking gallons of coffee, but that's not happening. I am drinking warm teas though, usually herbal.<br />
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Actually, I feel strangely isolated in myself at the moment, with other moments of clear perception.<br />
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The one thing - or two things, or even three! - I have to face are<br />
1)my job<br />
2)computer time<br />
3)bedtime<br />
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1)I need to quit it. I don't really fit in the IT company. I don't what the f**k I'm doing there really!! Not a clue.<br />
2)I've been spending more and more time on the computer recently, it's like a disease/addiction. I have to quit this constant checking of, just rubbish really. I don't like it when I see people buried in their tablets/ipads/phones/laptops... so why have I been doing this more and more??<br />
3)I have to go to bed earlier.<br />
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I don't know how I'm going to quit my job. I'd love just to walk out, without even giving notice, so I don't have to face the people there anymore. Giving notice is the worst kind of imprisonment, in some ways. But it's helpful, and it's nice to be helpful?<br />
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Other than that, it's more and more obvious to me.... that everything I do is just one form of distraction to another... it's like my ego is going through some kind of revolt against... just to be a body, animated by consciousness, with no agenda, with no desire to be anything or anybody, someone/body unknown... with the hope that the overall shape/design of the planet improves... I can't really see anything else worthwhile wishing for really... there's nothing else to do than keep working toward that...<br />
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Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-58948561966804484812014-11-25T12:08:00.004-08:002014-11-25T12:08:56.707-08:00Finally some peace....<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I just wanted update my blog a little.<br />
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My path has always been two steps forward and one step back. If I look back, I see I've come a long way at not being a total addict.<br />
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Sometimes I was eating a lot of raw food, then going back onto the bread, or coffee big time and so on.<br />
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Something has changed now though. It's been months since I've had bread. Coffee, too, I'm switching off without any sense of loss at all. I feel so much freer. I get through work without coffee! Now that is strange.<br />
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As I go forward, I'm happy to join in very occasionally. For example, next Saturday morning I'll have coffee and a vegan pain-au-chocolat. The rest of the week, just fruits and some carrot and almonds.<br />
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What I foresee, is that this too will slowly start to feel strange (or maybe not!), but for now I'm happy with it. I feel at peace, because I don't crave some of the things I used to...<br />
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No rules! Just going with the flow.<br />
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I know this blog had the word 'breatharianism' in it, but really, I don't know about that at all. That's just an idea, and I have no idea what it means. What does anything mean? :-))</div>
Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-20886034875291257372014-11-06T03:38:00.002-08:002014-11-06T03:43:44.913-08:00The Test....<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
It's been a while since I've updated my blog.<br />
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The main thing really, is how I feel that every inch of my life is under inspection... No dark patch or emotion can be left... and also, my reactions to all things are being tested. Much inspiration from Buddhism and very brief contact I had with Buddhist monks. It is possible to go beyond desire and develop a deeply stable mind. Letting go, and in the process, seeing and receiving more, with always the desire to uplift the world in some way.<br />
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I wrote that wheat was a long struggle for me, but since last update, I've had no attraction to bread (June I think it was). I used to hit the bread like an addict (because I was an addict). I still drink coffee :-)) This is under review for me now too.<br />
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My food intake is really mostly fruits and carrots and celery, and almonds. I haven't felt better. If I feel like 'joining in', as it were, on a Saturday morning, I have a chocolate croissant, but my body reacts to that - not dramatically, but my body doesn't want this. I kind of enjoy that Saturday thing, but on the other hand, it also feels like eating slime or something... (I don't say that to anyone :-)) )<br />
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I feel like my body wants to reject what I'm mostly eating - all that sweet fruit, and fibrous raw vegetables. It's weird, or perhaps normal, but I have bowl movements four or five times a day. I read that was healthy somewhere, I don't know. I just know that my body is eliminating stuff as quickly as possible, to get it out... The opposite, bowls stuck with unprocessed matter, is clearly a health risk. It seems to me, health isn't so much about what one eats, but more about what one doesn't.<br />
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Here's a thing I've learned for myself. Eliminating food stuffs isn't really to gain anything for this life, like amazing health or longevity (after all, we all die :-)) ). It's that everything we put into ourselves has a kind of resonance, a link to the whole process surrounding the food product. I feel freer without putting into myself all those energies...<br />
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I mentioned that I'm under inspection by something greater than me, and that continues to be true. It really is like a test. Often, I don't welcome it at all, and just wish I could be 'normal' and eat normally, But on the other hand, stagnation is not an option...<br />
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Weight still the same, 10 stone. Stopped running (my joints troubled by it). Keeping fit though, push ups etc.<br />
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Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-32748479552194229672014-06-22T08:02:00.000-07:002014-06-22T08:08:41.367-07:00Wheat is no longer my friend<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Since last entry I've been off wheat again. During last entry, I ate a lot of wheat stuffs, and even a small cooked breakfast (it was meant to be a Father's day treat, eh). The next day, I had to go to the loo 5 times. My body couldn't get rid of all that stuff quick enough.<br />
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And so, I've finally taken a position against wheat. I don't like taking positions against anything really, but wheat has driven me to it. My struggle has always been bread, while eating everything else raw. I've tended to stay away from taking a position, because it's so easy to take a view, from a mental/intellectual standpoint, which has nothing to do with what is actually right for oneself - and sometimes seeing which one is which, can be tricky. People everywhere are driven by ideals that don't necessarily match what is right for them. But in my case, after many months (even a couple of years?) of going to and fro over bread, I've decided to take a line. My line is that wheat is not good for the human body. Wheat is addictive and weakens the body. I've concluded this from the emotional energy associated with wheat, and how the gluten acts like glue in the body. But it goes further than that, gluten free bread is not the answer either. There's something about wheat - gluten free or not - which is completely addictive. I think taking a position against wheat is a game changer.<br />
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So wheat is no longer my friend - the kind of friend who was fun, but essentially bad company to be in :-)) (like ex girlfriends I guess, in some cases!)<br />
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That leaves me with only coffee as a cooked substance I use.<br />
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Wheat is strange, everything revolves around wheat, practically every eating social activity is wheat related.<br />
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What I'm going through reminds me of something I heard Genesis Sunfire say once. Something along the lines of, while it's ok to just follow ones own process and the ups and downs and not forcing anything, sometimes one has to take a position against certain things (food related, that is), employing an act of will etc.<br />
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Weight wise still just over 10 stone, nothing much has changed. Fitness is good, go swimming sometimes, do a few weights also, am slim but quite well toned I suppose (probably still thin looking to many people). Before I couldn't get used to be just over 10 stone (thought it was too light for someone 6"2'), but I feel great on it really, so I have to stop worrying about that completely. Actually, I have very long runner's legs, so that's where my height comes from. Without my legs, I'd be a shorty :-)<br />
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Looks like my body likes being this way.<br />
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Next step in the journey - no wheat from now on! Feels quite strange somehow.</div>
Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-71464090640319795402014-06-15T12:10:00.002-07:002014-06-15T12:10:51.433-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
After my month of no cooked, gone back to bread things, but without much joy in it. Some very weird things going on though... This change backwards has been accompanied with this powerful feeling (like a psychic feeling) of being helped by others who are further on this path than I am. And what has come to light, is that what is really holding me back, is fear - fear of going even further into the unknown, and a lack of commitment to these things.<br />
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Despite all the resources out there on this thing that is happening to so many people, i.e. living without physical food... it doesn't help that much, in the sense that one's own personal path and obstacles are not made any easier by knowing that others have gone through similar things. I feel very much like, that I'm stumbling forward completely into the unknown.</div>
Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-33064023862165070652014-06-11T10:09:00.000-07:002014-06-11T10:10:19.057-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
After that month without bread, I had two or three days of small amounts of cooked stuff,then nothing cooked for a week (I was thinking this pattern was at last different) but then the bread bug kicked in, - that, and more coffee too (apart from that small cup once a week). These things all seem to be connected somehow coffee-cookedfood-bread. It's rather like, I get the taste for these harder things, and it kicks off the whole cycle again.<br />
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I know the only way to kick the habit, is to kick it for good. It's interesting though that twice now I've dumped the bread for a month (as well as cooked food obviously, which I never have much of anyway apart from bread when I'm on it), but twice now when I've reached the end of the month, and something in me is still telling me to go for that drug stuff again.<br />
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Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-25622616375146566962014-06-03T11:45:00.001-07:002014-06-03T11:45:20.584-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
So that's how it's gone. After those butter beans in a salad, I've had some stuff I thought I'd never have again - croissant type things, and more coffee than over last month (where was having one cup a week). On the other hand, I don't feel like I've completely lost my balance. Just last night, strong feelings of light. Today in the office was tough, sitting at a computer all day, getting achey etc. And this going back to stuff I haven't had for a month (crappy wheat), all started because I had a weird time at my folks, still processing it. Still don't feel like I'm going to start eating loads of bread though. Had some nuts too, which I haven't had for a month. Last time, after my month of abstience from things I've been very addicted to, I started on them for a long time after again. This time, I want to reign things in quicker, I'll give it two or three days.</div>
Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-46849212029604607652014-05-31T12:24:00.001-07:002014-05-31T12:34:23.274-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
<span style="background-color: #dee3e7; font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;">Introduced a little more coffee again while away at my folk's. Tiny cups of coffee. Came back after a few days away, and felt really hungry. I always feel hungry when I came back from their house. Even though I only ate fruit and salad while they had all their usual stuff - and their daughters love to bake, continuously, bread and cakes - when I got home, had a tin of broad beans with some salad stuff. Now I feel a bit yuky. Why do I always feel hungry when I come back from their house, weird. Think it's an emotional thing, somehow - seeing my mother, sister etc. Could have been worse. Could have binged on bread. Whole month now without bread - without anything cooked or processed at all - apart from the broad beans today. Nothing like old family connections to stir things up. Weight just above 10 stone, last time I looked. </span><br />
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<span style="background-color: #dee3e7; font-family: Verdana, Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 12px; line-height: 18px;">I'm feeling so sad at the moment at the insane destruction of the animal kingdom by humans. Went past three loaded cattle trucks on the road at different times, sheep in one, cows in two others; all crammed in, looking stressed, piss and shit coming off the trucks, headed for the abattoirs. What a lack of compassion. What insanity. All for the sake of taste pleasure. Humans seriously need to wake up.</span></div>
Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-28825188649010009102014-05-24T14:07:00.001-07:002014-05-24T14:07:43.262-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Sometimes I wonder what I'm doing with
this food refinement, and then I feel like I'm on the greatest
adventure of my life. Did a salt flush yesterday – not sure it was
quite for me. Definitely made me go more, fairly quickly too, but had
lower back ache (kidneys) as well as feeling nauseous at first.
However, I did feel that it was really removing and scraping away a
lot of sludge inside. Also, it definitely killed my appetite for
food.</div>
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Nothing changed much over last couple
of days, fruits mostly. Developing a dislike toward bananas, which I
find surprising, so having less of them. Still getting feelings of
depression, almost, after eating. Thinking it might be too much sugar
from the fruits, but not sure. Something's going on. Weight about the
same.</div>
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Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-20066045874150760442014-05-22T14:52:00.001-07:002014-05-22T14:52:38.324-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Still the same. Fruits mainly, some
salad. No bread, no coffee. Working on my fitness, but without
running. Doing stretching and yoga etc. </div>
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Have a feeling that the body
is just the way it is, whether body has food or not, but functions
better without. Mind programs and karma etc dictate the state of
someone's body. Substances that the body has no idea what to do with,
just stores it as fat. Nourishment is really a feeling of inner care
– eating something engenders that feeling of being nurtured
(perhaps similar to what Rudolph Steiner has said, that energy is
drawn through the process of eating, but not actually the food
itself). If feelings of inner care and wholeness are maximised, and
addicted thought processes removed, it is possible to live without
food. </div>
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Science seems to study how the body processes food, without
really knowing where all the energy comes from. So it surmises (quite
sensibly, on the whole) that food is the energy source humans need;
but it's a long way from being the whole story.</div>
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Been working on my cold hands, face
and nose and feet. Connected to this, feeling a lot more impatient
and angry (esp. with the children), and by being more forthright,
I've actually improved my circulation. It's as if my bad circulation
has been down to being too repressed somehow, literally not being hot
blooded enough. So I need to get a balance. Musn't take anything out
of the kids! That's the opposite of love. But I guess, as a parent
it's always hard to know when to be assertive and when to let things
go.</div>
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Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-1533213069302524872014-05-21T11:22:00.001-07:002014-05-21T11:35:10.035-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
3 weeks later still on the same path. Just raw stuff, 1 coffee a week (actually had 2 last week, socially). Weight staying about 65kg. Definitely building more muscle again, slowly. Eating mostly fruits though some salad at lunch. No oil on salad. Doing raw garlic, seems to be quite a good way to kill off some of the nasties inside.<br />
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Whenever I skip food, I get a feeling that it's the way forward. Had a strange thrumming feeling in my body, in my guts, when lying down in the evening without anything to eat. Mentioning it, because the feel of it was way different somehow to anything before, like something being done to me, rather than something just going on and generated by my own body. In fact, even heard someone (the same feel of the energy I mentioned thrumming) say to me 'let us liberate you from needing food'.<br />
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Today got home from work at lunch, half day, and didn't want to have anything, but forced myself to; salad, a large smoothie (bananas, orange etc etc). Nearly immediately my extremities became cold. Kind of strange, suffered from cold hands and feet when I was a teenager, then didn't, now it's full circle again, years later. I'll get over it somehow. Anyway, also suddenly out of the blue started to feel really down after eating, like depressed or something - that's weird, because I have no idea where that came from, but it came out of me. Feel fine now. :-)<br />
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Again get this feeling that I'm already there, just need to remove a little more, somehow. I mean, remove more murky stuff that is blocking the way.</div>
Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-45727687749402886422014-05-14T11:45:00.002-07:002014-05-14T11:46:47.908-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Just been eating lots of fruits since
last update, mostly smoothies. Very interesting how I seem off bread completely,
totally. Allowing myself one small cup of coffee a week, with my
other half. Always was our Saturday routine. At the moment, even feel
like I'll never go back to bread or in fact anything cooked. I'm
feeling that in the same way that I felt when I became veggie and
then vegan. It's a bigger thing though, going pure fruitarian, than
turning vege or vegan, so I'm not concluding anything yet. Just seem
to be pushed that way. Not entirely comfortable with the sugar rush
and headache I get from all this fruit, even though I try and burn it
off through being very active, lifting weights, doing squats, etc.
Feel like something else is going on. Like fruits are just another
distraction, really. Still, my plan is to get stronger and fitter
again, create more bulk with muscle, before fasting again. That's my
aim, at least. Last checked my weight, was 65kgs, up from my 10
stone (or 63.5kg), which was my personal cut-off point. Just get this
sense that I need to be clean and fit for the next step. No going
back, that's what it feels like.</div>
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Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-83771168929930852912014-05-12T15:02:00.002-07:002014-05-12T15:02:57.610-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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Hit the 10 stone mark this, so I'm
eating lots of fruits again. Had three smoothies today and extra
fruits in between. Will start doing more exercise and have started
working out a little again. Won't go running though. I feel this
sense of different things that need to be in place, to be more
aligned, to make a switch to different nourishment possible. This
also involves less babbling on this blog :-). </div>
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So far don't feel that great eating all
that fruit. But really not sure what else to eat, doesn't seem to be anything
else.</div>
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Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-58383524783990669952014-05-10T21:38:00.001-07:002014-05-10T21:38:18.515-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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yesterday:</div>
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Breakfast smoothie: 2 bananas, 2
strawberries, 1 grapefruit, a few grapes
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Water throughout the day</div>
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In the evening, had a banana</div>
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A much more hectic day than I intended.
Ended up by going to a folk music festival, instead of staying in the
house, with the children going stir crazy. It was cold and windy, but
we had a good time. Amazing dancers and singers from Czechoslovakia.
Thought I'd be weak from lack of nutrition (compared to my usual) but
I wasn't at all. Even 7 year old son on my shoulders to see over the
crowds, no problem. Didn't manage to drink as much water throughout,
as I intended though. In the evening, weight dipped under 10 and a
quarter stone, which I'm not surprised about. I think I'm going to
start having more stuff again today, we shall see. I feel really
great, but I don't want to become too skinny.</div>
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Other rambling thoughts today:</div>
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It's amazing how fasting or even
semi-fasting as in my case increases ones perception of things.
Realise of course, that anything I read or hear on the internet
about, well, anything really, is meaningless. I can only make up my
own mind on things, listen to my own intuition. At the end of the
day, the internet has to be switched off completely for spiritual
progress, in my opinion, as well as books etc. Of course, information
content can be found to reflect ones own viewpoint, but really, it's
only a reflection. There's nothing 'new' ever discovered out there,
really, only reflections.
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And as to the subject of inedia, my
guess is still that, there's a vast number of people who would do
well just to forget about it. It doesn't matter. Everyone dies.
Nothing is designed to live forever, physically speaking. Even forms
on the more subtle realms, have to be abandoned. It's kind of ironic,
that in the world of breatharianism, people really do want to have a
piece of the cake and eat it, as it were. :-)</div>
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On the other hand, only speaking for
myself, my intuition used to tell me over and over to fast and not
eat, years ago, many years before I'd even heard of 'breatharianism'
or even the possibility of it. When I used to have an impulse not to
eat, and fast sensibly and prayerfully, I had no idea about the whole
subject. I just knew that we humans are voracious consumers and far
from spiritual alignment. The first I heard of the subject and knew
it had a title, was when I came across something on the internet.</div>
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I guess ultimately each person has to
decide for themselves what gives them energy to life the life they
feel inspired to live. If it's cake and biscuits, why not? Obviously
there are some options which are healthier than others, but enjoyment
and fun goes a long way in giving someone a happy long life. Perhaps
some people are fasting without deep connection to Soul, as a mental
process – I'd say, forget about it then, go and have some fun. God
enjoys fun. Interestingly, in Islam, when you die, it's said that God
asks you whether you enjoyed your life or not, and if not, why not?
The implication is that it's meant to be about joy and fun. My view
is that killing animals for food fun is spiritually unacceptable, so
perhaps notwithstanding that, everything else goes.</div>
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If there's no joy in attempting a
spiritual progression, maybe it's just the wrong path for somebody.</div>
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One thing I know, is that I enjoy
rambling writing :-))</div>
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Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-57757124949671166282014-05-09T22:03:00.001-07:002014-05-09T22:03:15.463-07:00<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
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08-05-15</div>
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Breakfast – smoothie made of 2
bananas, grapes, 1 orange, small slice of melon.
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Lunch – Remainders of breakfast
smoothie</div>
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Had a banana late afternoon, for no
apparent reason, except it was there and over ripe, and I needed an
immediate boost as I was looking after the children</div>
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Weight this morning still about 10 and
a quarter stone, just under. This is certainly different from last
time when I cut back food drastically, when my weight loss seemed to
go in freefall. But today lots of anxiety in my head, worrying about
getting too thin etc. Something telling me not to worry though. This
feels real.
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Dry mouth all day despite drinking
plenty of fluids. Bad taste in my mouth. Red mark on my face coming
out.</div>
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Overall, funny sensation that I'm me
but not me at all, really. We are many.</div>
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Did some yoga.
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Had a bath, felt bathed in golden
light from above.
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Feel committed to what's going on
here. When I became veggie 20 years ago, I knew that was it. When I
turned vegan few years back, I knew that was it too. And now I'm on
this new phase, I don't even know what it is. </div>
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I have to go to work tomorrow for a
half day.</div>
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09-05-14</div>
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Breakfast: Smoothie made from 2
bananas, 2 strawberries, a few grapes, and a slice of melon.
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Had the rest of it during the morning
at work. Keeping hydrated with herbal teas and water throughout the
day.</div>
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Slight headache all day, hardly
noticeable though. Squeezing in my chest/stomach cavity again. My
weight today is just under 10 and a quarter stone, but only
fractionally. Not sure if it's due to less fluids or not. Loads of
energy all day, feel fine, alert etc.</div>
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Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-31766018113057538012014-05-07T22:10:00.001-07:002014-05-07T22:10:29.746-07:00more updates<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
[Really I should update this daily, instead of pasting several days in one go. I just find it easier not to log in everyday. I'll try though in future.]<div>
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06-05-15</div>
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Had a third of an apple yesterday late
afternoon.
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Breakfast: smoothie and half a grapefruit. Banana in the morning. Lunch: half a cooked potato and a fruity salad for, also, a small piece of a lentil bake thingy I made for my wife (I didn't eat all of it, really did taste like dirt). Nothing else for the rest of the day (apart from teas, and fruit juice and water).</div>
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This morning woke up feeling clearer
than usual. Weight this morning about 10 and a quarter stone, after
big morning wee. It could be loss of fluids that made my weight drop.</div>
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Working part time in the IT company is
kind of odd with all this going on, but ok really. This is also why I
took half a baked potato to work with me – felt like I needed
something to latch onto at work, if that makes any sense. In a room
with 13 computers and 26 monitors, electro static nightmare. Probably
a good thing that I'm only part-time there.
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Feel so much better without evening
food. All I can say, is that something is going on and it feels good. Quite a few days now on this diet change. Been doing more
stretching and meditating too. Presence of blue light again.</div>
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Fitness, well not running much
anymore, not sure it was doing me any good. Hip imbalance too great
to make the long distances safe. Eating reduced food has been
unknotting this whole part of my body. I recall now, how as I child,
I'd eat stuff in great quantity (Christmas etc), and how I could feel
it shape my body (in not good ways), in a deep way – how imbalances
within food create imbalances in body. I have much to work through on
this still I think.</div>
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07-05-15</div>
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Breakfast half a grapefruit. Lunch, a
few fruits with some lettuce leaf. Various fluids all day. Feeling
like fluids are actually heavy in me somehow, but I'm proceeding with
plenty of fluids anyway. Weight has still been hovering around the 10 and quarter stone mark.</div>
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I was going to have some baked potato
at my lunch, but as I was handling it, a voice seemed to say to me
'NO' really strongly. So I left it. Beginning to understand how
eating cooked food sets off old habits in the body. How cooperation with the forces at work must be listened to. Hope I can keep it up.</div>
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After my plate of fruits, I bit into a
small cube of the baked potato just to see and it tasted all wrong so
I spat it out. In the evening, cooking pasta for the children, I
tested a piece of pasta on my teeth but had no inclination to have
even a morsel of it.</div>
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Again feelings of the deepness of life.
I'm always going on about that.
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Strangely, despite not eating anything
much at all last few days, I had an itchy bottom today (candida
related I feel sure), something I've had on and off for quite a few
years. Maybe I need a salt flush or something. Need to look that up.</div>
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Not very hungry really, and plenty of
energy throughout the day. Did some stretching, and spent some
moments in rare glimpses of sun. Went to bed probably too late, about
11pm.</div>
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Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-38259140050006674422014-05-05T03:12:00.001-07:002014-05-05T03:12:22.989-07:00Sudden change <div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
It's strange, the day after my last update, this massive urge to refine once more took hold of me. I was expressing my unhappiness at being so addicted, and then suddenly something else took over. My notes for those days:<div>
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Wed 30-04-14</div>
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nothing to eat all day; juices (too much), some water
- terrible headache and feeling of nausea, also felt weak and tired.
Not sure if nausea is due to too much juice or lack of caffein :-).</div>
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Thursday 01-05-14</div>
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1 Grapefruit in the morning. Felt good,
strong, not hungry that much.</div>
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Friday 02-05-14</div>
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1 Grapefruit and 1 banana for
breakfast, worried about going through my morning at the office on
nothing, when quitting things and going to work are not a good match.
Also had a banana at work. Being in front of computers and working
hard quite difficult with diet change. Later in the day, massive
amount of bananas in the house, and felt guilty at them all going
ripe and uneaten – that old program of 'not wasting'. Had 9!!
Started to feel really nauseous some time later, and in bed that
night still nauseous.I mean, really nauseous. </div>
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Saturday 03-05-14</div>
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Had 1 grapefruit this morning. Don't
feel sick.
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Have plenty of energy. Doing decorating
today in the house.</div>
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Half a pear for lunch. Teas and water
throughout the day. Plenty of energy, only feel slightly hungry. A
couple of times had that strange pinched feeling, but this thing of
breathing deep into my abdomen takes over. Also, been feeling
spiritual forces at work. This feeling from them saying 'You are with
us now'. Happy that my resistances to their presence and their offer
has diminished so much.</div>
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04-05-15</div>
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Didn't sleep well. All of my energy
keyed up. Had a lustful thought and it went through my body like
wildfire. It takes just one thought. Slept quite badly. Loads of
thoughts and impressions from years ago bothering me. Woke up with
strong heat in my body, and felt weak, and slightly sweaty. I felt
drawn somehow. Noticed weight has dropped since the 30th by just
under half a pound. Had a piece of melon and a fruit smoothie for
breakfast and that helped. Later, my stools felt really hot, strange.
I didn't want to eat anything, but I had to do dad things with the
children, and there's no way I'm going to get behind the wheel of a
car, feeling like I can't operate! :-)) After more painting work,
felt somewhat better. Later in the day, having worked all day,
realised that I was fine, not that tired, painting away. A few cups
of herbal tea her and there. Weight the same as last night. Could
this finally be the beginning of things? The hardest thing will be my
wife and the family, if it is. It's lonely for her when I'm not
partaking in anything – and yet, this urge is so absolutely strong
to follow this path. It's as I was as a child, inspired by higher
things, before all the murk and lies got hold of me. Have to wait and
see I suppose. I'm very surprised I've gone through a whole day of
decorating on a piece of melon and glass of smoothie.</div>
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05-05-15</div>
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Lost more weight since yesterday, to
just under 10 and a ½ stone. So this morning had a large smoothie
consisting of two bananas, 3 strawberries, a slice of melon and two
small oranges, and then ate another banana a little later. I hope to
put some weight on again. I really don't want to lose weight. 6'2”
and 10.5 stone is the limit for me, really. I don't mind working with
feelings of discomfort in my torso, but I really don't want to become
stick thin. Squeezing in my stomach much, much greater today. Because
I need to be able to work, and look after my children, I can't push
things. In an ideal world I would be in a space where I can
experiment fully. Have to see what happens.</div>
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Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-65402492234796862472014-04-29T08:11:00.003-07:002014-04-29T08:11:52.509-07:00Sick of addiction<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
It's been so long since I've updated this blog. Partly it's because nothing much has changed. Well, actually, that's not quite true. I've become much more even in my thinking with regards to food, and think much less critically about eating habits in general, whether mine or other people's. Personally, I'm more interested in spiritual expansion, non-judgment, and be that more close to the subtle spiritual reality of existence.<br />
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And yet... I am so absolutely bored of my food addictions... I mean, really sick of it. I can't stress this enough. And yet, I go on. I'm not overweight, in fact, slightly under according to modern measurements. Often I get a sicky feeling after eating and like I'm closing up inside or something, I stick to fruits in the evenings and have such a deep feeling of rightness whenever I stick to pure foods (well, as pure as possible as no food is pure). But the addiction goes on, for coffee and bread, even though I feel yucky when having these things.<br />
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I thought I'd have got tired by now of putting rubbish into my body.<br />
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Soon. Soon I hope. Soon!<br />
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Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-23890131861919581712013-12-13T10:40:00.001-08:002013-12-13T12:04:18.193-08:00where I am now<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
I think the current moment is characterized by a feeling, of being really supported somehow... it's like a slow, slow process, where each impression I have over food, the automatic response to it, is slowly being unknotted... And then, each time it's my choice as to whether I become a robot again, or not... and that too, is being worked on...<br />
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still where I was last time I wrote, whenever that was, I think... mostly fruit and salads, with bits of toast here and there..and coffee</div>
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actually, finding it harder and harder to find bread to toast that I really like... I'm like an addict who can't get a hit out of the usual drug... my favourite and pointless toast is white highly processed and over salted bread... it often tastes really weird to me, but I still go for it, optimistically at least, like I can extract some kind of sensation out of it!! and yet, it tastes completely strange to me... but it's a thing in life worth experimenting with, for a while still...</div>
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I could do another month without bread, like I did some time back, but I feel like i'm biding my time, waiting for this energy I feel, to increase and increase, until I have no choice at all... sometimes, I think, I have to make a stand with it.. I guess it's a little of both really..</div>
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I've found that making a 'big conscious decision' about not having a certain thing, makes things work the wrong way, which is why I'm gentle, gentle, gentle with it all. If I look back over the last few years, I can see a slow weaning off process, where I'm freer in different situations to think, I don't need or want to eat this thing..</div>
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I really feel that I'm becoming more aware, really, while still having these things. Perhaps, I'll just naturally reach a point where I say 'that's it - thanks, but no thanks - it was fun while the party lasted!' and move on, as there are moments where I feel more and more incorporated into this strange but real feeling of a higher reality</div>
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In my heart, I feel like I have stronger desire than ever to move forward, but I don't really know how or where, so again, all I can do is go slow, very slow.... </div>
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if anyone still reads this, I hope this was interesting to you, we are all making a difference to this earth by each removing barriers in our minds, slowly helping the whole by helping ourselves become freer...</div>
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God bless!</div>
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Lovedimensionhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/03151015953623741585noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4663371984529800083.post-52510192302064977722013-07-26T15:05:00.001-07:002013-07-26T15:10:00.847-07:00Feeling strong, encouraged<div dir="ltr" style="text-align: left;" trbidi="on">
Being a home dad presents its challenges, especially for someone who has some kind of spiritual calling.. Day in and day out, I can get hit by situations and emotions that trigger emotional responses in me. How to remain calm when the children are bickering? That's just one example of a great many situations, where I have to inject energy to help or divert situations and I don't always succeed!!<br />
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Fitness wise, things are progressing well. From someone who could hardly do 12 press-ups, I can now do 45 and occasionally 50. Also, the running I love so much, is going well. My legs can eat up 7 miles with extreme hills, with little trouble. I can run more, 10 the other day, but lately 7 miles have felt fluid and strong. All this work has been getting more and more to the root of my left/right imbalance, which has been digging into a more spiritual reality, as a process. At the moment I'm ensuring that I'm getting lots of fruits, for carbohydrates, especially bananas etc.<br />
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I feel like I'm on a journey of two roads. On the one hand, I love running and would love to join groups of ultramarathoners who spend their days in the mountains, just running and enjoying this strange and amazing creation we're in and part of. Then on the other hand, I feel really strongly that physical food is not necessary, really. However, I'm not sure it's so wise to cut out food when putting the physical body through extreme athleticism... :-))<br />
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The other evening, as I was just sitting down, it felt to me really strongly, again, that eating physical food can be optional. And also, that the way forward is to move beyond food. Individually, for the world...<br />
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I still keep to fruits mostly, and raw vegetables from the garden (broadbeans, peas, salad leaves) but don't freak out against myself if I divert to a coffee or a rubbishy piece of bread. I say rubbishy, because wheat really is extraordinarily addictive and there's no nutritional value in it at all - so even though I went a month without bread, I'm having it occasionally again, but it's always disappointing! So, I don't know why I'm bothering. I'm sure it will pass again. An interesting interview on CBS with a cardiologist pointing out how modern wheat is a perfect and addictive poison: <a href="http://www.cbsnews.com/8301-505269_162-57505149/modern-wheat-a-perfect-chronic-poison-doctor-says/">http://www.cbsnews.com/8301-505269_162-57505149/modern-wheat-a-perfect-chronic-poison-doctor-says/</a><br />
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I'm feeling this calling so strongly to refine, spiritually speaking. Tomorrow I'll do a days fast, just water and juices. I won't go running though.<br />
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Peace & Love 1 and All :D </div>
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